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PATTERN PLAY WEDNEADAY |02

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So it’s that time of week where I spend my morning doodling and coming up with a fun new pattern. Now I started this one yesterday, and it took me a while but I love the outcome of it..just have a guess of what I was craving while I was doing it! I had  lot of fun coming up with cute mini patterns to put on all the little doughnuts…totally craving some iced doughnuts now though!!

 

Happy Wednesday all, follow along on the journey with #wflovespatterns on Instagram, would love to see some of your doodles!

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So to help us all get through the week, I thought I’d start a new series, where I publish a new pattern/picture for that humpday Wednesday..just as a little boost of creativity. Maybe we can get a # going…#wflovespatterns. Yeah I like that. Anyway here’s my first pattern of the series, loving bright contrasting colours at the moment, so let’s get those clashing patterns going.

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I also wanted to say a big thank you to everyone response to my post on Monday, all the love and thoughts mean so much, so thank you x



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So I don’t want to like complete ignore the fact that I have called this post untitled, to be honest I didn’t know what to call it…hey I’m back..my month off..these just didn’t fit to me.  I haven’t blogged for quite a while..for the longest period ever…even after having Arch I only went a few days before I started up again. But I needed this month. I’m kind of contradicting the subject of this post with pretty spring pictures. I really have no idea how to go about it..but hey let’s just start with a few facts. Firstly Parenting is HARD AS FUCK.

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I love Archer, but it’s not been an easy ride this motherhood thing. When Archer was 10 weeks I had a meltdown. I wouldn’t let my sister leave, I didn’t want to be left alone with him, and while expressing every 2 hours which led to just 1 bottle of milk, I was exhausted, devastated and defeated. I spoke about my breast-feeding journey, or more importantly lack of, but I didn’t go in deep about my mood and the aftermath. I gave up expressing 3 days later when one of the health visitors came out to talk to me about my mood. Richard was called home, at the time by my rather worried sister, and we decided on a new plan of action to help boost my mood. I was visited a couple of times for a few weeks, for chats, and my friends rallied to cheer me up. It took a while for the guilt of not nourishing my baby with my own milk to go, but it did and I started to feel better in myself.

 

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But parenting was still hard work, but let’s be honest. All parenting is hard work. I was burning the candle at all ends. Doing commissions, nurturing Archer, doing the blog and sometimes doing this on my own while my other half worked stupidly long hours. Not helped that both set’s of family live a fair distance away. During Richards late finishes I was finding myself having a mere 40 minutes break (where I would normally shower/ do jobs) each day between Richard getting up than having to go to work again..I was a mummy machine, killing myself to get sponsored posts out and cling onto some identity which didn’t label me as ‘just a stay at home mum’. I’d have mini meltdowns of exhaustion and upset every month or so. Me and Richard would emotionally vomit, get in some help from the family, then I would be on a high for the next couple of weeks till the next burnout.

 

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Second fact, mum guilt is REAL. I was doing my blogging work at midnight, showering at 9 in the evening when Archer was in bed. I’d then deal with Archer’s hourly wake up calls before bringing him into bed with me at 2 am. I’d go to groups, do baby activities with Archer, cook him healthy food, sing dance and everything in between. I never neglected Arch, and I would never want to. But if for a few days I didn’t have the energy to take him out, and I just put cbeebies on, man the worry and guilt that I’m not nurturing my child would sink in. Comparing Archer’s progress to other kids didn’t help at all either. We really shouldn’t compare but let’s be honest all mums do this at some point. I have the overly hyper/destructive child out of the group, this being especially noticable at soft play. Something I came to hate. Why? Because it makes your  heart beat fast, your face bright red and your patience completely deplete. As I looked at other mums around me, enjoying their time, looking all-powerful and mighty in their honest motherhood state. It occurred to me, and though I hate myself even when I type this..I don’t enjoy being a mother.

I love Archer, I wouldn’t give him up for anything, but there was a point when I was really struggling with this idea that my main thing in life was being a mother, and I wasn’t enjoying it. I found myself thinking, maybe this is kind of normal, Archer was having a particularly bad period regarding his behaviour..and well parenting is hard right..but this feeling didn’t leave…and with it came overwhelming guilt and sadness.  I wanted to enjoy Arch. I wanted to be the best mummy to him.. I wanted to enjoy this special bond..this gift that some people go there whole life wanting and sometimes can’t have..

Something wasn’t right..I mean this wasn’t normal right?..let’s cue 5 more months of me battling this unbelievable sadness and guilt. After a very difficult weekend at the beginning of this year, my mum witnessed a meltdown, and expressed concern for my mood. With some hope I came to think, oh maybe this isn’t normal, maybe this is just a hormonal inbalance..maybe I could begin to enjoy motherhood. Did I go to the doctor..no. Let’s just say the stigma attached to post-natal depression was something I didn’t want to deal with, and I was convinced that with better eating and excercise and regular emotional vomiting with Richard we could cope and work through it. Just as a side note, emotional vomiting is talking not actually like being sick…just so you know.

Anyway the next few month were brutal. My monthly meltdowns became weekly, then daily. Me and Richard called quits on my attempting to deal without help, just over a month ago. It was a morning where I had been watching Arch downstairs, and suddenly something switched, and I didn’t want to be in the same room with anyone. I went upstairs gave Archer to Richard and pretty much hibernated for a few hours. Something had to be done. The next morning we were at the doctors.

I was diagnosed with Post Natal Depression. In hindsight I should have gone back to the doctors after the meltdown after the 10 week episode. But I didn’t. I can’t get that time back with Archer, where my patience, happiness and attitude might have shaped different memories. But I can’t think about that stuff. Because there were good times, it wasn’t all dark. It was more that the sadness encroached more and more and became an annoying little niggling feeling. But I can tell you something. The last month has been quite possibly one of the best. We have made the effort to see more family, enjoy the sun and many flowers.  I DO enjoy being Archer’s mummy. And I have waited 20 months to feel that.

 

 

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OFFICE STATEMENT WALL CHOICES

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Hey guys, so following my moodboard that I did the other day for my office, I’m trying to decide how to do the statement back wall. Firstly excuse the photo quality, my camera is still broken, so this is an iphone picture. Also the mess, but hey I’m sorting out my office so yeah. So while trying to come up with an idea, I came up with loads..crazy right, but I narrowed it down and I need your guys help….thoughts guys thoughts?

I’ve put the patterns down below to get a better idea.

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See I love the idea of doing this, as it would be like having a wall covered in rainbow hundreds and thousands…fun but it might make me want to eat my weight in cake everyday…circle-confetti-pattern-1

 

So this is Richard’s favourite one, i really like the triangle confetti outline..plus it reminds me of 90’s beach huts..

 

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I have a piece of art work like this, and well if you follow me on instagram you will know that I’m crushing on the grid pattern quite hard at the moment. Plus this just reminds me of Hockney’s work too…. pretty pretty pink.

 

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And the first design I did. I love the strong green with the confetti accents..but it is only half the wall…ahh I dont know guys!! Help! I’m leaning towards the giant light teal circle.

 

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MY OFFICE MOODBOARD

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Ok so me and Richard have sat down and ‘tried’ to work out some sort of system when it comes to getting our house finished…the task at the moment feels neverending..and with a limited budget, we are doing most of the work ourselves. So back to the logic. At the moment the garage is pretty much filled with my office stuff, as well as many corners of the house. So if we get the office finished, we can empty the garage, which will give us a whole space to do all the handy work, which will in turn relieve some of the chaos and DIY paraphernalia thats taking over our home..

So to my office, I want somewhere that’s bursting with energy but also somewhere me and Richard can go chill and relax. With a bar..it could also be a little entertaining spot too. So to the moodboard above. Here is a list of my sources of images and products, just before I forget.

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Ice Cream Cone Planter  Aww Sam

Fur Throw  Etsy

Sofa  Ikea

Bar Cart  The Every Girl

Hanging Planter  Etsy

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Ok so I already have the sofa, though it has an older cover on it, hence lots of cushions needed and I also have a unit for the bar cart too. Regarding artworks, I’m always on the look out for new pieces, and want some really interesting ones to keep the creative juices flowing. I’ve brought some already, but I rather like the look of the functional glass art pieces here. It’s totally different and not something I normally go for, but they look so cool. I also kind of want a giant canvas to put up against one of the walls..because you know why not.

I’ve painted the room white, but I’m looking to do a pattern on the back wall..possibly like the confetti one I quickly designed for the moodboard. Because I have the white walls, it’s ok for me to go bright with colour in the accents and furniture. With the art work, ornaments and even my favourite books. But I really like the idea of the back wall, having a pop of colour and being a big feature in the room..what do you guys think?

Now you may be thinking why do you need a bar cart and sofa, isn’t this just another form of procrastination. And, yes yes it is. But the idea behind the office, is that I want it to be somewhere me and Richard can go chill in the summer evenings. Also in my mind it’s safer to have a bar cart in a room Arch won’t really go in, rather then one just in our living room. Hello drunk toddler worry.

To keep me on track with my work, i’ll invest in a cute wall calender, and Richard is currently building me a side board which will run down one length of the office. Perfect for holding all the props and craft tools. My desk is already set up, and I have a chair similar to the one in the moodbaord, but it’s teal..and lacking the pink fur throw…which Im pretty sure I need in my life.  If your thinking well jeez that’s a lot of colour and pattern overload, then yes..it is, but remember, I’m pairing the colour with white walls and a bare wood desk. The natural greenery of plants (hello how cute is that ice cream planter DIY??) will help keep the pallette from looking to over colourful. I’ll make it work! But I’m just excited about having somewhere to create, and somewhere to keep the craft explosion mess so my living room doesn’t suffer.

Lastly, I’m on the hunt for some artwork, i’m rather into hand drawn illustrations and typography prints at the moment, so if you have any recommendations leave me a link, or send me an email!

 

Happy Friday!

 



JUST ME

I’ve never really done this before, I mean I’ve done personal posts and such, but never started a blog post without having an idea of what the post is going to be about. So let’s just wing this..and I apologise if it turns out to be super boring..

This is where I guess you tube comes in handy like with vlogging, but man do I hate seeing myself on film. And not because i’m not so great at body confidence ( yet) but it’s my voice..like I sound young..teenage almost babyish young and it makes me super cringe..anyway. I’m thinking of using this platform every now and then just to get rid of the jargin that’s in my head. I spend a suprisingly large amount of time just me and Archer. Richard works crazy long hours, we don’t have family around, I see my friends with babies once a week or so, and we do quite a few baby groups, but man are mummies clicky. So I find myself  talking to Arch a lot, and most of his responses are dog and quacking..Oh the weirdness of being a mother hey.

But recently I found myself questioning a few things..which though he tried, Arch just couldn’t give me a definitive answer…so what do you guys think

Do you think Trumps tan colour is actually called cheeto orange dust?

Why aren’t blueberries blue on the inside..it really bugs me..

I think these two are for sure the more important questions that I have been pondering the last week or so..

 

I think that’s about it for my ramblings, hope you all have had a lovely Wednesday..man was it long though..I just worked out and I’m now currently sat on the sofa attempting to recover while watching Mad Men..the first season, yes I realise I’m like 10 years too late..but oh well..

 

 



VALENTINES DAY FUN PHOTOSHOOT

Ok I gave myself the mission to try to put myself out there more on the blog, and so thought what better way then doing a fun valentines day shoot with my sister and my very talented friend Letty. Let me start off by saying that we started the day with 7 beautiful bright red heart balloons. By  the end of the day we had 3 left..1 we gave away to a lovely girl named Kat, check her site out here, and the other 3 got lost to the sky..thanks to poor tying (letty) and abby not grasping how strings work..lots of laughs and awkward poses later here are my favourite shots..

asos-curve,-curvy-girl-plussize-fashion-style-valentines-day-So incase some of you have never seen me, which is a high possibility because I really don’t post many pictures of myself on here. Here I am…totally regretted the nude tights in the end…black would have suited so much better…oh well. Surprisingly I don’t totally hate this picture. Letty is pretty good at managing to make me look less like a character from Wallace and Gromit.  I feel like I’m on this journey of trying to learn to appreciate, care and love my body. Since having Arch I’m probably at my biggest I have ever been, which is pretty much down to a few factors that I won’t go into for now, but it’s all a learning curve..isn’t it.

I need to do a big shout out to my best friend Letty for being the photographer/stylist and confidence booster for the day. Go check out her work because shes crazy talented. And shes like my saviour for most things!

 

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Quite possibly my favourite picture of the shoot….

 

Abby wears New Look dungarees ( no longer available) , vintage top and Dr Martens boots..

I’m wearing pink pinafore dress from ASOS, which is sadly out of stock but here’s something similar. My coat is ASOS too..out of stock obvs..

My bag is ban.do, fun fact it’s actually a cooler bag, but it was too cute not to use as a bag. Quite possibly one of my favourite purchases EVER.

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So we went to the beautiful Nottinghill Gate, where everyone dreams of living in one of the colourful houses, fun fact no.2 as I was posing in front of the pink house ( see pic below) the owner came back..not awkward at all..

Abby my darling sister looking effortlessly beautiful as always.

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Here’s me before I awkwardly backed away from said pink house…

Here is wishing you all a lovely Valentines day or Galentines day xxx

 

 



SEXY LINGERIE IDEAS FOR VALENTINES DAY

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So it’s not long until Valentines day  and even if you’re not spending it with someone you love, sexy new underwear makes everything better. So if your going out with your girlfriends, heating it up with your other half, or just chilling on the sofa..these cute pieces will bring out the girl power and give you some sexy confidence.

  1. ASOS curve eyelash lace set, £34.00, Sizes 38D-44H.  2. ASOS skye satin and lace set, £28.00, Sizes 4-16.   3. Boux avenue mariette set, £49.00, Sizes 32A-36D   4. ASOS curve sidney eyelash lace plunge body, £22.00, Sizes 18-30   5. ASOS juno eyelash lace suspender, £12.00, Sizes 4-16   6. Forever 21 scalloped lace trim bodysuit, £15.00, only M left be quick guys!   7. ASOS extreme elastic suspender, £14.00, Sizes 4-16   8. Bonds new era seasalt floral set, £29.00, Sizes 8-16

So I brought the first one and its super comfy and cute..I found that ASOS do quite a few plus size lingerie, but I didn’t really find many other brands that I like..if you know of any hit me up with some info below!

 

Have fun guys!!



WEEKEND ANTICS; DORSET

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So first off my lens for my camera has broken, so sorry for the lack of posts…sometimes iphone photos just don’t cut it. But they will just have to do for this post while I wait for my new one to come.

So we went to Dorset for the weekend for a family event. The weekend was super stressful. I’m not even going to try to make it sound amazing. Seeing old friends and going to the beach was super fun. Having a poorly toddler who clung to me the whole time not so much. Arch was battling teething the whole time we were away and he was sporting a rather nasty temp, so he spent most the time sitting on us, being carried by us and generally not letting go of us, while watching his cousins and his little friend Georgia play the days away. Such a long couple of days..which pretty much ended with Arch vomiting down my top because he got in such a state when he couldn’t reach his toy, and me just having a meltdown due to a emotional overload. So yes rather stressful…but hey having a toddler isn’t always easy and fun is it. Though when we did go to the beach, arch did seem to have a little fun and I got some cute pictures too.  I could easily live by the sea..I wish I was there now…because out of the whole weekend, while we were on that beach, Arch was just sat there chilling, it was the most relaxing part of our little getaway.

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This is my dad (bampi) arch and fin, such a cute photo. Arch really doesn’t get to spend much time with my side of the family just because they are so far away, but due to my dads demanding job he get’s to see him even less, so little moments like these I think are super important..plus super cute right?

 

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I think aswell as feeling poorly, Arch was just super overwhelmed, there were 24 people and a dog altogether, and that’s a lot for a poorly 18 month old..such a long weekend guys..like I’m still recovering from it.

 

IMG_9628So I wanted to trek up this cliff, I mean how pretty does it look up there, but I didn’t for 2 reasons. 1 I was wearing converse, and it was super steep. My mum only just managed it in walking boots. And 2 I didn’t have my camera, so I feel like Iphone pics might not have been good enough… but for sure I’ll come back and capture some beauts one day! Also apparently this is the beach from Broadchurch? I don’t watch it but Tasha was pretty excited about it.

So that was our weekend, I think I’ll start making this a regular feature because it give me a chance to do some laid back posts showing you guys how we spend our time..

How was everyone else’s weekend.



COLOUR COMBINATION, I NEED YOUR HELP! 

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Ok, so I’m currently working on a new series of products, which I’m super excited about, but have hit a minor road block. So I came up with this idea that I’d do a series in seasons, like fashion I guess. With each new series having a colour palette.

You still with me? Good. So anyway trying to find a good colour combo is driving me crazy, as you can imagine there are so many different combinations, and so I thought I’d ask your guys opinion.

In the above pic are my group of colours. Of which I can edit shades etc, and add black, white and grey into the mix as neutrals too. Question is which palettes do you like better?

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Ok, so with these two sets, I rather like how the top has a cooler, pastel vibe. While the bottom is more vibrant..but I’m not really sure about the dark blue, you know?

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I’m really not sure about the navy blue..maybe it can be a little detail colour, I’m worried it’s too harsh for what the idea is..( all will be revealed soon)

 

FYI you think I’m having trouble with just picking paint colours for a project, can you imagine the trouble I have decorating our house. Why do you think I’ve gone for plain white? Hahah

But what are your favourite colour combos at the moment, should I scrap these ones and start from scratch..help me guys!!

Happy Wednesday all x

 

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